I’ve been cleared to run! It’s been exactly three months since my surgery, but I haven’t run for about four… I’ve missed it so much.
I feel like I’m me again, that all my hard work in has finally caught up to me. Over the past two years I’ve learned that running is a gift. Most people don’t know what they’ve missed until it’s been taking away from them. During my first ACL injury, not being able to play soccer was the most depressing part, but now, running is what I’ve missed out on. Yes, I miss soccer a lot, but it’s not as prominent in my future as it used to be. I have new goals and ambitions that have switched around and have set me on a different path.
For example, today I read my speech to hopefully be elected vice president of the junior class. Truthfully, I don’t have high expectations for a winning result. I have a lot of regrets from middle school and ninth grade that put me in a position to think that I’m not well liked amongst my peers. I haven’t ever really had super close friends, but I do chit chat with people in passing. I’d say it’s a weakness of mine to not form strong relationships with people. As much as I would love to have a close group of friends to confide in, I would feel like I would be some what in a “clique,” which has never really appealed to me. I don’t know if that’s an excuse for not connecting with people or what, but what I have learned is that it’s better to be able to talk to everyone than be exclusive.
Because of my injuries, I feel like I’ve settled down and found my place. It used to be always about soccer, but tearing my ACL, twice, has made me a more rounded person. Soccer took up all my time, but now I focus on my grades, community service, and of course the Sunshine Club. For the first time in my high school career, I’ve made straight A’s every quarter. If I was focused on soccer instead of school work, I wouldn’t have achieved this type of academic success. Things have changed, some for the better, and some for the worst, but at least now I have my priorities straight. From my challenges, I’ve surfaced as a leader, and because of that I’m grateful to have been “changed” by a series of depressing events. But hey, life makes us stronger, mistakes make us wiser, and failure makes us a fighter.
I’m not the same person I was, and will probably never will be, but I am a leader.
So I think I will go for that run now, and with every step I take I will thank God for the beautiful gift of running and newly healed knees.